My heart is in Iraq

This site is meant for the women of different military men to support each other through deployments and everyday military life.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

New blog

I finally made my new blog, I was really getting sick of looking at this one, hopefully this one won't annoy me too quickly. Here's the link..this is where I will be from now on.... AND I put flickr on there so everyone can see my dress and stuff.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

I am still alive

Ok so I didn't fall off the face of the planet. I have been preoccupied by DANNY!!! He left today to go back to Fort Hood. It was a pretty easy goodbye. I mean I miss him but hell, he is in TEXAS. That is such an improvement. Soon I am going to be switching blogs I will be making one more appropriate for where I am in life right now. Which is PLANNING A WEDDING! I have about 5 months left. I am so excited. Everything is moving so fast. Christmas was great Danny got me an ipod nano and the one thing I had been hinting about for about a year.....Diamond earrings. They are 1/3 carat each and absolutely gorgeous. All my sisters were jealous and my dad was impressed so it is good all the way around. Hee hee. Oh and my parents decided to buy a house and we are moving. Which kinda sucks cuz that's means I will be moving twice in 5 months. I might just live out of boxes for a bit. School is starting soon. I am only taking anatomy and physiology 1 and the lab for that and orchestra this semester so that I have time to plan the wedding. Well that's all I have for now I will update soon again. LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Thursday, December 07, 2006


Ok so I actually got home on Sunday night but I had to jump into finals immediately. So now is my time to tell everyone how it went. Well on Friday I finally heard from Danny and found out that he would be coming in at about 8. So at about 6:30 we were getting ready to go and I was driving everyone crazy because I was counting down the minutes. I kept screaming "I AM SOO EXCITED!!!!" I couldn't take it. So we get to the base (my first time on Fort Hood) and we needed to get out our IDs and it turns out that my dad's drivers license had expired. So they were saying he couldn't get on, I didn't know what we were going to do, because we all rode there together. We explained that we were just picking up our soldier and so on and so forth and the guy at the guy was like "Well.." and just as I was about to scream something like "OH COME ON, BE AN AMERICAN!!!!" he said he would let us on, but first we had to go to the welcome center and get a pass. By this time it was 7. I was still calm but getting nervous about the time. We get to the welcome center and of course there are a billion people there. Ok ok so I started getting more and more nervous. And on top of that we had to go back to that specific gate so that that guy would let us in. So finally we get the pass after waiting for a half hour, then we get to the gym. I am feeling better and getting more and more excited. So finally they announce that "THE BUSES ARE ON THERE WAY!!!" I started really freaking out. I was soo excited. So then there they were, a fog machine was turned on and they came running in. I was looking and looking and I didn't see Danny, I thought maybe I just missed him. I turned around and said to his parents, "Did you see him" they were like no. Well once they were dismissed I was realizing he really wasn't there. I was crushed. I started getting teary eyed and was getting really upset. So I reach into my purse and grab my phone to text him and ask where he was, but when I picked up my phone I saw that he had just sent me two text messages. One said "The plane landed YAY" and the other said "I am on the bus headed your way" I was soo excited. But now I had front row seats because all the wives from the previous guys left. So finally they were running in and I saw him. I screamed his name but he didn't hear me as he ran past. I couldn't sit still, and finally when they were dismissed I ran out onto the floor to find him and he was looking for me. He saw my parents in the bleachers and they pointed him to where I was, then at that second we both looked at each other, we were like 6 feet apart, I screamed his name and ran to him. He picked me up and spun me around, and hugged. It was just like a movie. It was the most amazing thing ever. It was perfect in every way. So after that we went out to eat and I was glued to his side. That night we stayed up together til 6 AM Saturday morning. I had so much fun. And since I have been back in Missouri, we have been staying on the phone all night long. It is so much fun. I am so happy right now. Sigh.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Almost there......

Ok so you won't believe where I am right now...... KILLEEN, TEXAS, HOME OF FORT HOOD!!!!! I am so excited I can't contain it. I have waited soo long to type this post. Danny is coming in tomorrow, I hope, right now I have no idea where he is. I was hoping to hear from him today. I would like to thank all of you ladies from the bottom of my heart. I couldn't have made it this year without you. I never imagined that I would grow so close to women that I have never met. You ladies are incredible, strong, supportive, and wonderful listeners. We have created a support system that I never thought would be this strong. I really do consider you ladies my friends. I find myself talking to other people about you and I share your ups and downs. You understand what and how I feel and you make me feel a little more sane about some of my feelings. I am so sorry that I didn't post before I left, we actually left on Wednesday at like 10 PM and arrived at our hotel at 1 PM on Thurday (so basically about 2 hours ago), we were just going to leave on Thursday at like 6 AM but there was going to be ice and snow in Missouri so we left the night before. We drove through the night and now here we are. I am sitting in my hotel room with my parents snoring in the next bed (my dad drove through the night) and my future in laws a few rooms down also napping (Danny's dad was the official navigator) I am going to go nuts. I want him to be here now. Everywhere I turn I see a guy in camo. It is killing me. Less than 24 hours to go hopefully. Man, can I wait that long? Hahaha. I want all of you to know that I am not going to leave blogger. I still have quite a lot to do. I am getting married in 6 months, and moving to where I am right now. Killeen. Hmm... I hope I like it here. I saw they have an Olive Garden so I think I will be ok :) Ok well I am going to go attempt to do some homework before we go out to dinner tonight. WISH ME LUCK!!! You probably won't hear from me again until after I come home then I will have pictures and all that good stuff. YAY!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Last one

Ok so first I must say... I PICKED OUT BRIDESMAIDS DRESSES!! I am sooo excited. This has been the most challenging part of my wedding so far, because my bridesmaids come in a variety of shapes and sizes. But the other day, I went back into David's Bridal and I saw it, the perfect dress. A bright light shone around it and I could hear the Hallelujah Chorus. It was amazing. It was cosmic. No, it was all God. I am sooo happy. So then came the real test. How did it look on the girls. Well, I took someone's advice which was dress the hardest girl and it'll look good on everyone else. IT LOOKED AMAZING ON HER!!! I will post pictures soon. But now for the real news.
Danny's last mission is today and probably starting soon. And let me say that although I am soooo excited. I have never been so nervous. I just keep thinking, man we have come this far, what would I do if the unthinkable happened. With the end in sight, taunting me. I couldn't take it. I wouldn't know what to do. But I need to stop thinking that way. I really really do. I have 10 awful days left. I am leaving for Texas on the 30th and I am soo excited. I will have time off work. YES!!! Haha, oh and I get to see Danny. Just kidding. But anyway, it is almost 1 AM and I have to start a paper for tomorrow. Haha, I hate school. C'est la vie. (two years of french, blah).

Friday, November 10, 2006

Updates Updates.

Ok sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Danny and I have been having some problems, but I think we are going to be fine. It's been rough but all in all we'll be ok. I am getting more and more anxious about his homecoming. I just want this whole thing to be over. Even thought I have been mad at him, I still miss him soo much. I am so happy that Courtney and Charla's guys are home. CONGRATS GIRLS!!! I am so excited for this semester to be almost over. I can't wait for Thanksgiving break. I need to do some deep cleaning of my room and organizing. BLAH!! I am not excited but I know I will feel a whole lot better when it is done. Since I will be moving to Texas, I need to get rid of all my "junk". Right now I am supposed to be doing my chemistry homework. But I'll be honest. I HATE CHEMISTRY!!! A lot, I mean really, it sucks. Other than that, I feel like sitting on my butt, watching "Chicago", and going to bed on time (meaning before 1 AM). Oh and something funny that will enjoy that I am personally proud of....there were some dumb kids honking their horn outside my house over and over again. I thought they would just pull away but they stayed on my street honking, I thought maybe it is one of my little sister's dumb friends, so I stepped outside but it wasn't a car I recognized. They were in front of my neighbor's house yelling something out the window. Finally like a complete hoosier I yelled "STOP HONKING YOUR HORN!!!!!" I can inside and laughed because it was definately 10:30 at night and I am yelling out my front door. It was awesome. They sped off and I didn't hear honking for the rest of the night. Well, that's my story hope it made you smile.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

When will it end??

Ok so today was just one of those days. It really didn't even start until I got home from work but once I did I sat down on the couch (instead of starting the homework that I needed to do) and finished the movie my lil sis had started. I don't even know the name of it, but of course the end has some love scene, the guy grabs the girl, the passionate kiss, the music swells, you know the drill. I have been able to do ok with some of those movies but today it got me. I started to cry. I am so frustrated, the end is within reach but not really. I have about a month left and it is taking TOO LONG!!! Time has never seemed to go so slow. After the movie I went and met my friend Julie at Sonic where we got food then drove to the Target parking lot to eat it and talk. Don't ask why we went to Target to eat it but we did. Afterward I was driving home and I heard this song by Kenny Chesney "You Saved Me", once again my eyes started to tear up. I don't really know how relevant that song is to Danny and I but it is really just the fact that I have no idea what I would do if something happened to him, or where I would be without him. My whole life and everything I do and the decisions I make are based on our future together. But of course I didn't change the station, then wouldn't you know it some other song came on immediately afterward, I mean really, it was the next song, and it is about a soldier that had just come back from war and how someone said he was different and he explained that he came from a land where everyone hated him and his friends were dying and no one cared. Also a tear jerker for me at this time. DAMN COUNTRY SONGS!!!! I mean I love it but come on people, give a poor girl a break. So right now I am forced to ask...When will it end?? How much longer really?? Is it going to continue to be this hard at the end?? I can't handle the frustration. I have been missing Danny so much lately, and I have been talking to him more than usual. He has had more free time so he can call me more than once a month. You think that would make it easier and I wouldn't be missing him so bad, but it doesn't. It used to do the trick, I would hear from him and I would be ok for a bit, but now it's not good enough. I want a hug, I want a kiss, cuddling, movie watching, talking face to face. Those are the things I want. I miss how clueless he is to what I want, how messy he is when he eats, how cute he is when he sleeps, I even miss goofy grin he gets when he has successfully pissed me off. I miss it all. Sigh. Why can't it just be over now?