Well I am back and I have mixed feelings about it. I am sad to be in this situation again but I did miss you guys. Anyway spending two weeks with Danny was amazing. It realized very quickly just how much I missed him and how much I love spending time with him. We had so much fun. We went to the zoo, the symphony, a Cardinal's game at the brand new stadium, and we attended many family dinners and functions. It was exhausting but at the end of every night we cuddled on the couch watching movies. I always left his house at 2 or 3 AM which really sucked because I had school the next day but I didn't care. We also reserved the church while he was home. We sat with the pastor and told him that marriage counciling would be difficult since he is in Iraq but they are going to work with us. Anyway he left Sunday morning. I didn't leave his house until 3AM and I was back at his house at 5:30 AM to spend time with him before leaving to take him to the airport at 6. He looked so good in his uniform. He was tired too. He tried to stay awake all night so that he could sleep through the flights because he didn't want to think about home which would be hard for him because he didn't have anyone to talk to. What is funny is that I contained myself at the airport. I DIDN'T CRY. Granted, it wasn't easy but I did it. After that I came home and slept all day. After that I felt like a zombie. I didn't have much feeling. Wasn't happy, sad, I was just living. It was like being in a constant daydream. I went to work on Monday and the girl I worked with was like, "Smile Courtney, come on smile." Finally I told her I don't feel like smiling. And I didn't. But then Danny called me from Kuwait while I was at work and that is when the emotions started coming. I cried the whole phone call but he didn't know and once we got off the phone I lost it. I was bawling. I knew that was going to happen too. I figured everything would hit me when he called from Kuwait. As of now I don't know where he is. I assume he is still in Kuwait because he told me he would call me when he got to Iraq. Anyway for some lighter news.... I bought my wedding dress today. I am so lucky too because it is being discontinued and I could have only ordered it til the end of this month. So as of now I have the reception hall booked, the church, the photographer and the dress. So I am well on my way to a June 16, 2007 wedding. And I can't wait. After these two weeks with Danny I know now more than ever how wonderful he is and just how perfect he is for me.